maybe desperation

dass wir äußerlich zusammen passen ist nicht so wichtig dass wir die gleichen lieblingssachen und lieblingsmenschen haben das ist nicht so wichtig dass unsere wohnung stilvoll und sauber ist ist nicht so wichtig dass wir uns gesund essen sparsam sind sport machen und disziplinieren ist nicht so wichtig dass wir auffallen und beeindrucken ist nicht wichtig dass Gott in unseren leben sichtbar ist spürbar ist hörbar ist das ist wichtig

enlightenment conquers my soul somethimes i feel so strong and invincible and i aknowledge it's because of God full of hope i dare to promise i'll triumph because of God and then after some triumphs i get slaughtered by hopelessness by loneliness by weakness by reality. enlightenment is perfect reality is not. and then i'll remeber hope because of God. (i have to think about this interesting word "überspiritual" i picked up in Brennan Mannings book "All is grace")

let's always say "one more time" always one more time forgiving always one more time trying always one more time enduring always one more time hoping always one more time till God's given  end. inpired by "All is grace", by Brennan Manning, chapter 16

when we try but it's not us it's misunderstandings don't walk past don't overlook me understand me. misunderstandings are nightmares understandings are wonders  of love and light.  God is love.

i'm angry with the art today i want to see some beauty we've been stirred up enough let's rest let's find some rest some quietness some brightness some hope some peace some answers some beauty beauty where should i search for you in which beholders' eye? i'm angry looking for beauty

i wanted to be heard no, i didn't say hurt, - heard like hear. i mean... i wanted to be noticed, seen, appreciated, special, unique, i wanted to impress (you). i'm impressive. i wanted to feel my value, to hear it, see it i wanted to be held dear, held high, honoured. hear me, listen, let me impress you. be impressed. see me, notice. make me shine. i wanted and i want. sometimes. but sometimes i'm ok.